yesterday went shopping again with my sister. we went hcc first so i can pick up my calc book-- saw tiffy there. then shopping we went! bought some new clothes and shoes. got some Jamba (chocolate moo'd baby!) and was in heaven! haha... starbucks is hiring... but i wouldn't want to work there-- just saying for all y'all starbucks lovers. went home and played with my new "toys"... hehe.
today did some last minute washing and i guess preparing for school tomorrow... gawd... i don't wanna go. all this preparation is making me nervous like something bad is about to happen. but it's just another year of school, no biggie. but i guess the first day is always important... first impressions are important. gawd. don't make me go! i don't wanna go!
just went shopping today instead of going to the beach... maybe tomorrow... i don't wanna come black though... hehe. but hopefully on saturday i'll watch medallion with my familia...
Tuesday, August 19, 2003 [ 08:10 p.m. ]
thank you... so much... for being there for me...
just read shauna's xanga... didn't want to leave a comment... not that i didn't want to console her but i don't really know what to say. at least not directly to her... making it seem like i'm preaching or something. when it comes to things like this, i tend to talk about it perspectively and idealistically... metaphorically, i guess.
in honest truth, i totally understand and sympathize with what shauna's saying. sure, we may all go through the same tribulations and have the same problems supposedly dealt in everyday life but it all the depends on the person on how it's all seen. one may go through what shauna has and be emotionally and mentally okay with it all, feeling like he/she isn't alone and able to talk about it with friends. from what i've read, shauna doesn't feel that way. granted i haven't always been the best friend anyone could ever ask but i'm here. i am a friend. sure, i may not have really experienced what she's going through but i have a sense of what it would feel like. i mean, we all had our share of broken hearts and nights of tears. why, just last night i wasn't able to sleep and was crying my eyes out thinking about my life again and why i was the only one going through this. yes, i truly felt alone and thoughts of no one being able to help me ran through my head many times but that's not true. there are so many others like me out there... and my friends are always here. okay... so i don't talk to you guys about the reasons of my tears and by doing so, i guess i am alone. why burden you guys with things you may not care about... it's truly only my problem(s) and i feel no need for you guys to worry about me. that's why i feel shauna and i are one in the same. the way we both deal with things are so similar and i totally grasp what she's feeling. the things she said are some of the things i say to myself, the same things i feel. and writing a comment in her xanga may alleviate the pain for now but, i know, it won't last. the hurt will come back again and again and again until somehow she/me/we are able to accept the circumstances and take it in stride. live day by day... don't worry about tomorrow or the next day or the next... all that matters is today and the people who make it worth living today... hopefully i will be in you guys lives everyday... cuz i know i'd want you in mine.
Tuesday, August 19, 2003 [ 02:32 p.m. ]
"INSERT anything here... OUCH!!!"
okay... here's what happened yesterday... it's a long-ass entry so if you just want the gist of it, read the underlined stuff... =D
haha... actually went out of the house today. i went walk all the way to kalihi kai (haha... make like it's far... but hey! it was kinda raining...) and okashi's all like "they just left 5 minutes ago! try go to the busstop!" so i meet mili, gelo, and cherry there cuz mili had to pick/choose her senior portraits and they had to turn in their applications. so yeah... i finally got to see this bf of mili's... seriously NOT someone i would see her with --(karma)-- and talked nasty and kronic and drunk and stuff on the bus. got to sterlings and it was packed with people we didn't know... i swear it was sOo hot when we got there and that stupid fan outside never even do nothing! haha... had to help mili choose from her many poses... she look so pretty and i swear it looks all the same... haha. mili's quote: "insert anything here... ouch!!!" haha... so imagine a head shot of her and that saying down belowover there... lmao. we went 99cent marukai and "played with the yarn" and touched some stuff... "they should have a graphing calculator for 99cents." i wish they did, dammit!
anywayz, took the supposed long way to alaz cuz we was walking in the shade... haha. can see us all filipino style in 1 line in the shade... hehe. finally got there and went by sears fast kine for, ya know, stay in the aircon... haha. then we went food court and ate and stayed there for like 2 hours! i think... haha... we were just bloated! and i didn't even eat all my food! "balon, balon" looking everywhere and just looking at each other. mili over there acting high and drunk and cherry fingering her hair and gelo with his corrupted application and stained shirt... haha. mili tasted my lip balm! haha... it's starfruit flavored SpongeBob that's why... hehe. when we actually felt ready to go, mili turned in her app and we went bathroom... haha. stinky! hehe.
then it was off to Jungle Fun! haha... so fun! we played with all the toys and watched the monkey vibrate... lol. mili and cherry faked and cheated the first game of air hockey... and me and gelo was just over there cracking up cuz cherry's following the puck and mili is getting bruised... lol. when they played for real, the 2nd time, that was really fun... the adrenaline i tell ya... we was all screaming and stuff... haha. we was about to leave cuz we wasted our 2 tokens! (so rip off $1.00 for 2 tokens...) but when i went past by the token machine, i found one token and we took it! haha... yes, we took it and played the bumble bee thingy. haha... me, mili, and cherry is all cheating on that thing... so we can get tickets... haha. we got 8! yay! then we was gonna buy 2 tatoos each but we was like, "aww we should've played that" (the thingy like bowling with that small ball and holes with the points and stuff...hehe <-- hey! i don't know what it's called...) so we chipped in 25cents each and played 2 games... gelo got the 100points and in total we got 22 tickets now... yay! so we all get one caramel apple lollipop and i got 'the One Ring' haha... and mili got like 2 tatoos i think.
then we go and walk and saw cara and stopped to get some drinks... i think we just sat there and drank for like an hour or something... haha. cherry was over there trying to get away from us! haha. we finally started walking again, then cherry got mad and left us cuz we let her walk by herself in the front (ya know what i'm talking about, right?) and yeah... she left us once we got to the escalators. we was like "where she went? see you guys, she's mad now. she didn't go home, did she?" and stuff like that... we felt bad... but she came back! yay! haha. we went like hot topics, claires, and stuff... just walked around 3rd floor and when we passed by one of those "coming soon" stores... we was like freaking out cuz it was Jackie Chan's restaurant or something... haha. "we hafta work there!" haha... so kRoNic! then we went macy's so mili can try on her shoes and that's when mommy called... i'm glad the others wanted to go home too cuz i didn't wanna leave by myself, ya know? so we make a quick stop at shirokiya and cherry saw my boobies on the camera! haha. then we walked, saw cara again and went to the busstop. on the bus going home, this dude was showing off his (i think it was) dvd player and he was playing filipino stuff... haha. cherry said it was karaoke but i don't know... haha. we was just cracking up cuz we're all over there watching. free movie at the back! and there's this dude in front of us who was like leaning towards the side to see too... haha. so funny! so we finally all get off the same place and depart... twas fun! we should do it again... so maybe mili and cherry can see me whoozee... haha.
the pictures are up so go over there and click the August thingy... it's kinda junk pictures but oh well! haha... i should've taken more pictures though...
Sunday, August 17, 2003 [ 01:15 p.m. ]
hmm...
had an interesting phone conversation today... haha. well... not really because i didn't even talk! haha... it's sOo funny hearing mili and gelo talk and mili's over there trying to get me and cherry to talk... i had a feeling gelo knew i was on cuz (duh!) he has caller id but they didn't get into that... haha. i was cracking up by myself over there in the kitchen and my brother(s) all thinking i cRaZy cuz they thought i wasn't on the phone since i wasn't talking... lmao. finally (after a long time of mili trying and hearing gelo's dog barking...) mili got fed up and decided to hang up... haha. that was seriously fun!let's do it again! haha
is "oriental" really a bad word? i never thought of it being offensive. i always thought oriental was pertaining to Asia... but rhem said that it meant an nonexisting place... so i look it up in the dictionary because for some reason i couldn't accept that word as being offensive and low & behold-- we're both right... so i've been saying a bad word all this time... i feel so bad... (*tsksquared) don't you just hate it when words you know suddenly turn bad? what is our world coming too? pretty soon every word in the dictionary will have a bad connotation...
Saturday, August 16, 2003 [ 09:46 a.m. ]
vika - pualena
wow... i hope you're having fun over there for your birthday, Chrisfelley! you're lucky to have parents that are so "OPEN"... =)
waiting til wednesday cuz my sister is coming back and we gon watch "the medallion" when it comes out... haha. i swear i remember saying to myself that i was never gonna watch movies with my family ever again but here i am... hehe. i guess it's because i don't have to worry about money =D
don't you hate it when you want time to slow down and then it ends up going twice as fast? gawd... i don't wanna go to school! i'm not ready! i say that every year and it makes no difference... haha... it's a tradition, i guess... i hafta to say it or else the school year will be whack! lol...
Wednesday, August 13, 2003 [ 05:44 p.m. ]
it's probably the 14th already over there at the philippines so Happy Birthday Chrisfel! and don't worry about all that dramaz going on in your life... it'll be okay...
Wednesday, August 13, 2003 [ 03:17 p.m. ]
brand new - the quiet things that no one ever knows
went to HCC today (finally) to register so all'z i need to do now is go back tomorrow to return the scholarship thingy and turn in my measles documentation to the health place... then just wait til next week to pick up my book... i just hope i took the shots already cuz then it'll be too late. please! i'm sOo proud of myself for walking down there all by myself and waiting there for like an hour and not getting lost! yay!
i guess it wasn't meant to be afterall... =(
note: i meant to put this up days ago but i forgot... KRYPTONITE is dead! goodbye to kryptonite forever! yay! they are no more! i am happy... yes, i am! that's what you get for being what you are!*mwahahahaha*
how dare you! how ironic is it that i reveal something about you and out of the blue, here you are. to do that for something so minimal... in the few seconds between bringing my hopes up and stepping on my heart, i actually thought we had a chance...
i'm am dreading the 25th... the only reason i would want time to speed up now is because i want to change my layout... haha. and that's all. if there was anychance of having him in my class... i'll change my mind... hehe... but i know how my life works and it won't ever happen... *sigh...
Tuesday, August 12, 2003 [ 03:26 p.m. ]
schedule fun!
today... went to pick up my schedule and all that shhtuff... seriously didn't want to wake up in the morning but i promised mariel that i was gonna help today so yeah... my sched is okay, i guess... the only thing messed up about it is that i get ap english 1st period! so first thing in the morning i hafta see shiraki?! oh gawd! now we can't like copy and stuff... haha. yeah... that's why i'm not smart... i just get by with other people's answers... haha. mean, i know but hey! it's been working for me so far... haha... why change a good thing? haha... jus joking. but yeah... and i have chorus2 but i want photography... what should i do? i mean... i'm okay with chorus cuz i know how it goes and stuff but i want photography but if i take photography, i know we can't afford to buy a camera and i'd hafta use mr'z one but what if something happens to it? and i'd rather use my own camera, ya know? it just feels different when you know you'd hafta give it back...
so yeah spent the day walking around school grounds but mostly spent my time helping rhemie pass out scheds in the Q-R-S section... i was a freelance person until May had to do something so yeah... i wasn't able to just go and walk around and stuff until we finished. i was hoping i would run into mili so she can tell me all about her summer but i didn't see her... aww =( so yeah... just talking with rhemie about all shhorts of stuff haha... ho the dramaz going on in her life, i swear... there's some soap operas goin on... i like see how da ting turn out... haha. interesting! some little adorables out there... haha. and yah.
GELO: don't go against your morals! yes... rhem told me... sorry if you didn't want her to but yeah, that just came up... hehe... but don't! you're right (i can't believe i just said that =D) and it is cheating... i mean, i understand tiave but yeah, i'm siding (<-- is that how you spell it? it looks weird) with you... hehe... good thing i'm not in your shoes...
anyway, met janice to give her avon order... haha. and found out honda's sister is right next door haha... and yah, after we finished, me and mari went mcd'z cuz we never get free food like rhem cuz we scared and went my house so mari can finally have her cd... haha. note: i finally called Maslowski! yay! clap for me... i meeting her tomorrow cuz honda got me all scared that she dropped some people cuz they never register... gawd... pray that i can get my book and shhtuff in time... i'm sorry i procrastinated! it won't happen again! *pshh... yeah right! hehe so here i am, typing up it all over here cuz xanga'z being a butt... don't even know if all y'all posted something or something... haha. so yeah...
Monday, August 11, 2003 [ 03:15 p.m. ]
if it's meant to be, it's meant to be
got woken up this morning by sandy... had no idea we had to pick up schedules so early! gawd. did i go and help out?... uhh... no. was debating long and hard whether or not i should've... for one reason in particular... hmm. came up with the solution: that i wasn't gonna put myself in that position... if it's meant to be then we'll see tomorrow... hmm...
so how'z all y'all's classes? good?
yesterday: went to my cousin errol's college grad party. was okay, i guess... i'm totally drained though... i'm sure i would've slept more but sandy woke me up! *sigh
Thursday, August 7, 2003 [ 08:18 a.m. ]
"I'm not leaving because I couldn't kill you, I'm leaving because I could"
today we (me, my brother, and sister) went watch "tomb raider: cradle of life" at dole. it was good... i don't know which one is really better though but yeah, it was worth waiting 2 hours! for. cuz we were supposed to catch the 2 o'clock showing but the thing was cancelled and we had to wait til 3:50... gosh. but it was good...
Wednesday, August 6, 2003 [ 10:24 a.m. ]
evanescence - going under
kay... this is for yesterday Happy Birthday Mommy! my sister came down today to celebrate my mommy's birthday so yeah
today:
went to pay my dues with heather and mari cuz today's the last day... haha. PROCRASTINATOR! i know but can't help it... i'm seriously in summer mode =D so yeah... went to kalihi kai to meet heather, then paid dues (saw janice t. and jessica over there), then walked down laughing at heather and mari tease each other and while mari went home, me and heather went office depot to buy cds. bought food and went my house for eat and download songs. i swear that everytime i hang with heather she always making fart and stuff... so funny. man it was hard listening to heather on the computer while i was talking to shauna on the phone and having mari call me (call waiting) at the same time... *whew*... sorry to you guys if i wasn't really paying attention... i tried my best shauna to psyche you up but i don't think i did very well =) and don't worry about the magazine, i'll remember to buy the shane one and NOT the orlando one... hehe. hope your conversation was good... that is, if you did call. =D
hopefully we'll watch movies tomorrow before my sis leaves on friday... her peeling skin is disgusting! hehe
Sunday, August 3, 2003 [ 09:47 p.m. ]
e-mail addy change...
okay, i admit it... i have sOo many e-mail accounts i can't even count them (haha) and sometimes i can't keep straight what e-mail address i give you guys (although i'm pretty sure y'all know my aol addy) and now that i'm bored out of my mind, i have NO choice but to just check my many e-mail accounts... haha. so i've decided to make a totally NEW account that i promise will be the one i stick to... so if ya wanna know... tell me (somehow...) and i'll tell you guys, okay? ok...
Sunday, August 3, 2003 [ 11:07 a.m. ]
cooliosa!
hey... i was mentioned in orlando bloom multimedia! cool! hehe... just wanted to say... lol =D
Friday, August 1, 2003 [ 09:04 a.m. ]
more quizzes! more fun!
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're the kind of chick that can hang out with your boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't care about presents or about going to fancy placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy being around your boyfriend.
What Kind of Girlfriend Are You? brought to you by Quizilla Romantic movie! You probably won't star in a porno anytime soon. You seem to be really into the whole "love" thing...romantic sex with perfumed sheets and candles all over the place. You're probably a hopeless romantic. You value sex and respect your partner too much to do anything like porn. AWWWWWW! <3
Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You? brought to you by Quizilla You come from an Ancient Civilization. Egypt, China, Rome... a piece of all the greatest civilizations of their time can be found in you.
--edit ( 11:11 am )
i sOo have the urge to change my layout because i have one already made but i sOo don't wanna change the beautiful green layout of orlando i have right now. lol. haha... speaking of change, i'm really thinking of cutting my hair... yup. if i am, i'm gonna layer it and probably have bangs... haha. all cuz i looking at old photo albums and thought i looked okay in bangs... hehe speaking of old photos, here's the baby pic i gave sterlings... okay... so it's NOT really a baby pic but hey! that's the youngest pic i could find... i think my baby pics in the philippines... =)
--edit ( 1:50 pm )
don't you just hate it when you just browsing through websites and you CAN'T see shet? man... it's like is there anything over here or what. a dark font shouldn't go on a dark background dammit... do you want me to go blind?! haha... just talking... sorry yah... it's because some idiot decided to put some porno in my guestbook!! aaagghhh! so i DeLeTeD it! i mean... i don't care for whatever advertisements you put over there but PoRnO?! hell no!
Thursday, July 31, 2003 [ 04:26 p.m. ]
senior portraits...
just came home from choosing which pic i wanted for the yearbook. i seriously couldn't choose which one i wanted and plus, i had to choose which one i wanted to buy also. i think i took like foreverz over there... hehe. man... i couldn't believe i looked like that... haha. so hash and da kine some of the pics but some of em was ok, i guess. so yeah... i bought like 6 poses. hmm... maybe i'll post it up later. keyword: MAYBE :D yeah... saw some people over there but not really anybody i knew so yeah...
SHAUNA: i know you're not a KRYPTONITE... hehe
oh yeah... my senior message: Don't fret. It's not the end, it's only just begun. sucky and lame, i know, but hey... i couldn't think of anything... it was last minute... hehe
Wednesday, July 30, 2003 [ 09:15 p.m. ]
mili's back from cali!
mili came back from cali today... seems like she had a FUN time... haha. i so wanted to hear the rest of her story but she'd rather tell it to me in person... hehe. so yeah, she's gonna tell me when we pick up our schedules which is somewhere in august... haha...
mili, how was it like going to Paris? hehe
Tuesday, July 29, 2003 [ 11:32 a.m. ]
QUIZZES!!!! FUN! FUN! FUN!
You are "Welcome to the Caribbean, love." You're more than a little world-weary, but also intelligent and you keep your head when things get dodgy. You're everybody's favorite drinking buddy, but your stubbornness does get in the way sometimes.
"1,2,3... good... turn your head a little... good"
haha... the guy is funny. just took my senior portraits today and when i got there, the place wasn't even open yet! how'z that! if i actually did get there 15 minutes before 9 like they said, i would've been super early. i think the pics will come out nicely... i mean, i wouldn't really know but they took A LOT of poses so some of them must be nice, right? i hope so. going back this thursday... i hope one of my brothers will go with me this time cuz riding the bus by yourself is SCARY! haha...
Sunday, July 27, 2003 [ 07:32 p.m. ]
once again, GOD has missed...
shauna called me to say that she saw someone. wanna guess who?? one guess... Him, of course! once again, i have missed the opportunity to see him... well, it wasn't really an opportunity but i could've been there. so she's there and she gets to talk to him and stuff and i don't... how nice my life is, yah? gawd. hearing her say that he was there made me want to rewind time so that i would've hung out with shauna more so i could be close to her friends too and i would be there right now... able to seehim... *sigh... i'm wishing... how sad am i...
--edit ( 8:00 pm ) WHY does it always happen to you?! you have a way of Attracting him... haha... are you trying to steal him? lol. *sigh
Friday, July 25, 2003 [ 08:47 p.m. ]
so scary!
went to get my TB reading this morning and come to find out sheila, gelo, and shauna were on the same bus. *whispers* "a l m a " sorry i couldn't Hike with you guys today... so sad only had 3 of you. so anywayz, i had 0mm baby! haha... i don't have TB! yay! hehe. my brother was getting worried that he wouldn't pass it cuz he still had a red spot but there was no bump. got home and did some re-decorating! i was supposed to go bowling with sheila them since i couldn't go hiking but my brother said that "... mommy doesn't know... blah, blah, blah..." and plus, he wouldn't give me money... so yeah. i was stuck moving fr*cken heavy furniture around... at least i got to work with tools! hehe. also, i'm trying to expand my vocabulary (hopefully to improve my english on the SAT) so yeah... i think i got like 30 words down so far. yeah... if i read the whole book, i will know 3,000 more words! yay!
Wednesday, July 23, 2003 [ 09:13 p.m. ]
went to take my TB test (finally!) for that running start thingy today... hehe. the bump went away in like a couple of minutes... =P. i have to go back on friday with my brother for our results. *shudders*... imagine going to school with my brother... eww. anywayz, we went city mill after to buy more stuff for our house... i SWEAR we'll never be able to ReaLLy clean this house at this rate... things just keep piling up. anywayz, when going home from city mill, i saw gary garo on the bus. he offered me his seat-- which i thought was nice of him. "... you wanna sit down? no, that's okay. no, sit down! no, that's okay!" he asked if i got my ap results and i SAID i did but i REALLY didn't... i know it was bad of me but oh well! he told me what he got... and asked what i got but i wouldn't tell him cuz duh, i didn't even get it! haha... i know-- MEAN... hey... but when i do get it, i promise i'll go to his xanga and tell him... haha.
aww... i wanna go kauai but my mommy can't afford to bring the 3 of us there right now... but i wanna go! should i go by myself? but i don't wanna go by myself! so junk! aww... =(
Tuesday, July 22, 2003 [ 09:19 p.m. ]
"no, no, no, no, don't touch, don't touch"
i spent my night babysitting my cousin's daughter, Lyric, yeah... cool name. she's so cute with her big head and small body... haha. she almost fell through my computer chair (the armrest, i mean)... haha. she wouldn't keep still and she kept eating my doritos! haha. she smelled like baby though and i love that smell. i think she's going to grow up to be an artist or a writer because she kept pretending to draw on the paper... haha. and she thought the controller was a phone! "hello..." so cute. i swear she loves buttons and knobs. the weird thing was that my auntie said she's not usually like this with other people. so me and junjun is special! haha. i hope she comes again!
Tuesday, July 22, 2003 [ 12:01 p.m. ]
forgot...
oh... i forgot to say Happy Birthday to Josh Hartnett yesterday... =D
Tuesday, July 22, 2003 [ 09:45 a.m. ]
"uhoh, uhoh, uhoh, uhoh" -Lumidee
i swear that song is addicting. imagine me going around the house just singing the chorus.. haha... IRKING! anywayz, counting the days until school (well, not really COuNTiNg) but ya know what i mean... it's so close! where has my summer gone? we finally got our furniture this week... yay! we finally have somewhere to sit! haha. we don't have to sit on the floor. wellz, my family wants to go on yet another movie adventure. they wanna watch "spy kids 3D"... my brother never saw a 3D movie before that's why. looks pretty cool but i wouldn't want to waste another 50 bucks (haha) on it... we're on a tight budget with this move already. sometimes i feel like i'm the only one who knows we're in this depression. i'm seriously broke because i HAD to give 20 bucks to the delivery people and my mommy still hasn't reimburse me. hey! that was my birthday money and you know how much will power it took to save this chunk for this long?! gawd.
i'm gonna take my senior pics on the 28th... i still gotta pick out an outfit. i'm probably gonna only take the yearbook pic one but still... i don't wanna go over there in my regular school clothes.
i'm on a WORLD mission. well, actually 2 world missions. won't tell ya though... it's TOP SECRET... haha.
Saturday, July 19, 2003 [ 07:07 p.m. ]
Fine! Alright! You've caught me... I DON'T care! I don't care anymore... for anything... not even. . . haven't you ever thought it was because you didn't care for me?
i avmav shio luoshital ing talhaeishi weorrludet avngdet shio ungluozeedet I jeaushital weavngtal yaou talo LUOZEE mave Pleavshie luozee mave
Friday, July 18, 2003 [ 08:16 p.m. ]
back in the good ole days...
ran across some letters from way back in the days and it made me smile =)
from shauna: ". . . in my eyes, you guys are lyke totally made for each other. . . . You guyz belong together cuz I believe it's destined to be. Like Theresa from Passions ALWAYS says: "It's FATE, Whit." Whoa, except... I'll change it: "It's FATE, Alma." Haha! So don't be so worried... like I've heard, if you have a strong love in your heart, anything is possible."
from heather: "I saw my name and I got 2 deficiency. One from Pd1 and one from whiteout's class. Woah. My dad goin' be hella mad at meeh now and I saw your name and you got a deficiency for dis class too. I hate Ms.Wong she giving me so much deficiency. I hate her. She's a b****. and plus to, she so hard. . . . I read your letter already and yah I think I can help you. Nah I goin' help. I cannot stand to -c- "1" of my friends so sad. Also I would do almost -n-e-thing for my (best) friend."
". . . I'm writing to you because I get choke stationary left and my mom going get mad. Um Fart um... oops. Sorry if stink I stay in the bathroom making dodo and fut at 3:00 A.M. in the morning."
"I hope I don't squeak."
"Right now there playing Hymn Song Variants and the triangle (carl) he sound so off. No sense Carl join Concert Band, when he don't even know what to play. My gosh he so hopeless."
from aimee: "But I can't leave everything here, especially you. . . . I will miss you so very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, much and I will never ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever forget you."
Wednesday, July 16, 2003 [ 12:36 p.m. ]
??
i think it was Amber's Birthday yesterday. oh and it was Jamie's birthday too
Monday, July 14, 2003 [ 08:12 p.m. ]
philosophies 2...
- If you wish for something hard enough, it WILL most likely happen BUT to the WRONG person. [ shishi knows what i'm talking about =) ]. WHY does it always happen to you! haha... i'm jealous. maybe i should hang around you more often... lol.
Monday, July 14, 2003 [ 07:26 a.m. ]
my philosophies...
- just because you like each other, doesn't mean your together. if he asks you out on a date or you guys just hang out, you guys are just seeing each other which means you're able to see other people as well. only when he asks you to go steady or to be his girlfriend are you guys officially going out
- telepathy and telekinesis is NOT really considered a power because there are some people out there who can do such things. I consider it a skill that most people CAN'T harness. now being invisible is a different story. I mean, c'mon, we CAN'T turn invisible! as for flying, flying is a power but levitating isn't
- words have different meanings (duh!) so when a guy tells you that you're pretty or cute or hot, he may MEAN it. But it's when he tells you that you're beautiful that he really LIKES you. (I don't know if i'd go as far as to say love)
- AGE ain't nothing but a number. But it all depends on what you're talking about. If a 16 year old goes out with a 25 year old man, you'd consider it a BIG difference. But if a 30 year old is married to a 39 year old man, it's NOT so big a deal anymore. WHY is that? they both have a 9 year difference! I say it's because of the kid-adult factor. So once you reach age 21, you're able to go with ANY man you want, no matter how OLD he is (haha!)
can tell i was bored... maybe i'll put samore up... if i can think of samore =D
Saturday, July 12, 2003 [ 10:31 p.m. ]
Paolo and Isabella - What Dreams Are Made Of
same picture but kinda different layout... i wasn't satisfied with it that's why... i like it now. oh and i put up music too so yeah... it's such a beautiful song that's why... i can't stop playing it... they should make it longer... hehe. if you wanna turn it off or whatever just scroll to the bottom... like the last version.
bye!
Have you ever seen such a beautiful night?
I could almost kiss the stars, for shining so bright
When I see you smiling, I go-oh oh ohh
I would never want to miss this
In my heart, I know what this is
This is what dreams are made of
This is what dreams are made of
I've got somewhere I belong
I've got somebody to love
This is what dreams are made of
--edit ( 10:27 pm)
thought i was gonna go sleep after i updated this thing but never mind so thought i'd post something.
just read a xanga and the dude liked Pirates of the Caribbean and wants to watch it again... i just HAD to laugh... haha.
talked to chrisfel and sheila tonight... was interesting-- while it lasted... i think chrisfel's comp was corrupting... haha... she kept logging on and off... that's ok... can talk laterz
Friday, July 11, 2003 [ 9:53 a.m. ]
Happy Birthday Shauna!!
hope you have fun with the pactanac's today!
Thursday, July 10, 2003 [ 10:52 a.m. ]
Happy Birthday Heather!!
Thursday, July 10, 2003 [ 08:48 a.m. ]
in continuation...
like i've said, we had a birthday party for mariel. so they met up at 10:00 while i waited til 10:30 to pick mariel up. so i'm like over there on the bus with my rice and plates on my lap and my stereo in my backpack and mari's over there holding my camera(s). so we're there at the beach already and come to find out they're still at ala's buying food. o..k.. we get a table and Sean and his friend, Chad, come at like 11 ish. So we wait for the others on the table, playing with Mari's new hamster that DaNces and SiNgs... haha... what else would you expect as a present from Sean?! anywayz... they finally come so we have batteries (therefore, music) and b-day hats (that sheila worked on last night.. lol) and food! "jo... go do the beyonce dance" "why?" "cuz you're beyonce" so we're all jamming and having fun and i felt bad cuz Sean them seemed to be to the side and sean had to do his homework because he forgot and yeah they left early like 1 ish. Nell and janice come and so does JC and jeremy. so yeah... we're still hanging... eating some pork hash and katsu. nobody wanted my rice dammit... i brought that shhh for nothing i swear. anywayz... cake time! come to find we no more candles so gelo over there gets a fork(?) and colors it red to make like it's a CaNDLe... lol. weirdo! blow the candle and mari takes the fork away... haha. funny, i swear. and sheila over there waited for like the longest time to shoot her with the crazy string... and come to find it doesn't even work! haha. so yeah, after the cake, they went swimming. why i never go swimming? ha! you think i'd like to add clothes to my list of things i have to bring?! hell no! lol... so i was left there on the table by myself for like something minutes until mari came back-- she was trying to wash the cake out of her hair! and Nell, JC them leave as well cuz of YHEC i think. so me and mari is there and i spot heather's sis and daniel and i see that Heather is right over there at the other tree. why she never come earlier... i don't know? but yeah she did come over and introduced us to whoever was with her and stuff... yeah... she never stay long though. so yeah... they finished swimming early for some reason and we left the beach at like 3 ish... so funny cuz Jo's bag kept breaking and they had to do an emergency surgery on the side of the sidewalk... hehe. so yeah... me, mari, and bran decided to go home (i had to be home by 4 that's why) and the rest of them (sheilz, gelo, jo) just hung at ala's.
so yeah... i come home, only to go out again in like a few minutes. me and my family is going to watch... what else? Pirates of the Caribbean! of course! haha... i know... watching movies with my whole family (well... except my sis cuz she's at kauai). the thing starts at 5:15 but it's like 5:00 and people are still in there and stuff and we can't go in. i swear the place was getting crowded just waiting for the doors to open and my brothers are eating away so they can do their "plan" where you eat em now so you can get refill before the movie so you can be kinda full and you don't need to miss anything. the movie was GOOD! and no... it's not only because Orlando was in it (though he was sOo cute!)... but because it was good. some parts were kinda yeah but the comedic timing was right and the action was cool and stuff so yeah... 2 thumbs up... haha. i would go into detail about it but i doubt any of you would really want to watch it so what's the point. so yeah... anyways... me and my brothers were freezing our butt off afterwards, sitting by costco cuz my mom wanted to go home depot to buy curtain rod. so yeah... we discussed the movie and cars and stuff while eating pizza... haha... i think we spent like 50 bucks that night man... gawd. good thing my mommy came cuz we would've been broke! lol. twas an overall GOOD day...
Wednesday, July 9, 2003 [ 08:15 a.m. ]
par-tay!
Happy Birthday Mariel!
in reference to previous entry... it's pertaining to him... if you haven't figured that out...
well... we're going to beach today for mariel's birthday party and
PirateS oF the CaribBean
comes out today!... that's why there's a new layout... i like it! do you? and yes, i believe in magic... ;)
Tuesday, July 8, 2003 [ 07:33 p.m. ]
Daniel Bedingfield - If You're Not the One
i was just thinking... now that we're seniors... if things will be the same between us. will we have each other in our classes? and if we do, will we go back to just being an acquaintance? or will we just pick up where we left off? i'd have to say that i kinda liked where we were before school ended-- ending with a smile and a wave... i just hope it's not completely over between us...
Monday, July 7, 2003 [ 09:57 p.m. ]
Hilary Duff - So Yesterday
well... since kryptonitedefiled one of my favorite songs, i just stumbled onto this one and it kinda reminded me of shauna and it sounds pretty cool so yeah... thought i'd post it up. it doesn't sound like hilary but if it is... wow, finally a song at a slower tempo... haha
Hilary Duff - So Yesterday
(So yesterday)
(So yesterday)
(So yesterday)
You can change your life (if you wanna)
You can change your clothes (if you wanna)
You can change your mind
Well that's the way it goes
But I'm gonna keep your jeans
And your old black hat ('Cuz I wanna)
They look good on me
You're never gonna get them back
bridge:
At least not today
Not today
Not today, 'cuz
chorus:
If it's over let it go and
Come tomorrow it will seem
So yesterday
So yesterday
I'm just a bird Thats already flown away
Laugh it off
Let it go and
When you wake up it will seem
So yesterday
So yesterday
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be ok
Ha!
Okay
You can say you're bored (If you wanna)
You could act real tough (If you wanna)
You could say you're torn
But I've heard enough
Thank you
You've made my mind up for me
When you started to ignore me
You won't see a single tear
It isn't gonna happen here
bridge
chorus
If you're over me
I'm already over you
If it's all been done
What is left to do?
How can you hang up
If the line is dead?
If you wanna walk out
I'm a step ahead
If you're moving on
I'm already gone
If the light is off
Then it isn't on
bridge
chorus
Monday, July 7, 2003 [ 05:43 p.m. ]
bashing...
mariel is seriously funny... planning her own surprise party... haha. she's so paranoid about what's going to happen and stuff... she wants to bring RICE for gawd's sake... lol. man
talked to shauna yesterday for like the longest time. it's fun bashingkryptonite! haha. you don't need to worry about tilting your head! sour face! *COUGH* why is bashing so fun even though it's bad? idk! but seriously, some of the stuff we talked about was deep and profound... what else would you expect from shauna? haha. my comment made you SMILE... yay!
Sunday, July 6, 2003 [ 03:27 p.m. ]
so-called
today i woke up early to go to a leo club service project at bishop museum. so me and mariel is over there at 9:00, waiting for people for come, calling people if they coming or not, getting looked at by people, getting scared that security might ask us questions and stuff, and walking around the place and going back. then rhemie finally calls me like at 10:00 and stuff and come to find out everyoneelse is coming later so it will just be the 2 of us... gawd! so we were like "frick it already... let's go". so we walk back down and go pricebusters and foodland and stuff... talking about stuff and memories along the way and at mcdonald's. so that was our supposed "service project" today... haha
Friday, July 4, 2003 [ 07:43 p.m. ]
Happy 4th of July!
Wednesday, July 2, 2003 [ 07:59 p.m. ]
whoa! did i just read gelo saying that my blog would help chrisfel on English?! whoa! haha... no way man! oh and sorry chrisfel for having long entries... hehe. i hope it was gelo and NOT me that made you late... lol. =)
my sister came down today for just one day... she might be back on monday cuz her day today was a "disaster"... aww. school is messing her up. what else does school do? haha. which reminds me, i still need to do that running start shhhtuff... gawd.
Tuesday, July 1, 2003 [ 11:14 a.m. ]
SAT scores
just found out my sat scores... bleh. i did surprisingly well on my math =) but english GAWD! i told you i totally bombed it... haha. i need to find out the upcoming sat dates so i can take it again cuz that was NOT GOOD! what did i get? let's just say at least i got more than a 1000... and that's not saying much... =(
Monday, June 30, 2003 [ 02:26 p.m. ]
Shun's Grad Party...
went to Shun's (pronounced like Sean or Shaun... hehe) grad party even though i don't know him... yeah. Shauna picked me up at like 12:30. so cute her cousin's in the back "ooh so nice... so big and nice..." haha... think whatever you want... enthen they were like singing off-key and stuff... so cute! so we arrive at ala moana hotel at one o'clock and it was so funny getting in cuz we were so suspicious looking-- entering at the last door... hehe. we arrived early again! they told shauna to be there at 1 and come to find out they're not even ready yet. so we're over there in the so-called waiting area and shauna's over there doing her homework! yes... she brought her homework to a party... haha. dork! i swear we look like criminals walking around the place. "you like walk around and leave our bags here? oh no... it's gonna look like a bomb!" "yeah... we look so suspicious walking around like we're finding the best place to put it! haha" so us bombers go and crash Weston Fujii's -- our best friend -- grad party (lol) and shauna goes and talks to her teacher while we're eavesdropping on Jamie Sullivan's dad lecture and PoW-WoW with Landon... haha. and they're StiLL not there! we're called to meet by macy's and we cruise around shirokiya looking for food but shauna just bought starbucks. so we're there on the ledge looking suicidal... haha. they finally come at 3:30 ish and i meet the mom and the lil sis, Michelle. cute. then the rest of the family comes later and i meet Ethel, Bronson, Shun, Sheryl (<-- it that how you spell?), and Don =) I finally get to meet the Pactanac family that shiana (that's what they call shauna... lmao) talks so fondly of and in which they have adopted her... hehe. "shiana's not a guest..." so i guess that makes her family... =) Aww... too bad shi-shi... if you're family that means you can't -yeah... make DoDo! =D. So yeah... 5:30 comes and goes and we get dressed in the room where the elevator is so fReAkY and shiana leaves me to deal with the japanese people ("konichiwa!") cuz she has to do her hair like Lizzie McGuire!... haha. so cute the family in their little performing outfits... so glimmery with their glimmery vests and shoes and their little bowties... haha. oh yeah... the Pactanacs have their own little band, "the Beaters" and they all play ALL the instruments AND sing AND dance... gawd... damn talented this family. so we FiNaLLy get to be receptionists when the guests arrive and we're there getting blinded and video taped and nobody's listening to shauna. oOh... these dudes from Tennessee came and i just have to say "wOw!" haha... the dude in the plaid was cute. hehe. okay... so the party finally starts around 7:30 ish and i've developed a major headache about 10-20 minutes before so i couldn't enjoy the good food once we actually got a table and ate. i attempted to stay for the important parts. The Beaters performing, the cute little dances by the keiki, the pactanacs dancing swing and the waltz, and Shun's cool slide show... makes me want to make videos and have a grad party of my own so i can do that too! haha. was so cute! but when it was time for other people to say a few words to shun, i couldn't handle it already... the room was getting hot and i was getting super sick so i changed back to my regular clothes and went to the waiting area to sit in the cold. it was the dancing part in the party so i wasn't missing much, i guess... unless i got a good SLEEP over there on the couch-- yes, i DiD sleep... that's what happens when i have a headache... i just hope i didn't look stupid to those people who saw me... haha. good thing my mommy called me so i woke up and i was feeling a little better. luckily, the party was just about ending and we were ready to leave. that's when the Real fun started... haha. DoDo touched me the first time i met him haha... aren't you jealous shi-shi? haha. the ride home with shauna's friend, clark, was fun! the dude in the front (i think his name was justin) was freakin' cRaZy!... screaming and singing and dancing and touching the wheel! i swear i went ScReAm when the car went swerve haha... funny as hell. it's FuN getting lost and just listening to music. i'm sorry to say that that was the most fun... haha. see shauna, i DID have FUN! so i come home around 11:30 ish and get busted for leaving early and coming home late but it's okay. so here i am typing all of this up and i still feel like i'm in the elevators going up and down-- can tell i get motion sickness easily-- feeling like i should take a nap after the long day yesterday but my mind can't help but stay awake. okay... now i'm getting dizzy... i go sleepy bye now. zZzZzZzZzZzzzzzzzzzz
Saturday, June 28, 2003 [ 09:17 a.m. ]
i finally have internet again! yay!
yay! i finally have internet! got it last night but i was too sleepy to type up one long a** entry about what's been happening since the last update so yeah.
new business:
going to shauna's friend's grad party tomorrow. it's at ala moana hotel so it's semi-formal... i hate having to wear sandals... oh well! oh and people, keep next week open cuz shauna wants to do something... i don't know what yet cuz she wanted to go bowling but good movies are coming out so yeah...
old business:
well didn't do much this week-- just tried cleaning up our house... ya know, trying to get rid of the boxes finally! let's just say it isn't going so well... a long more ways to go. oh yeah... i was bored last couple of weeks so since no more internet, i just typed it in notepad so here...
Wednesday, June 18, 2003
8:11 p.m.
back here again...
haven't been updating lately because we just moved back to bishop gardens-- same place, different
apartment. so yeah, been busy and hella tired. we've been packing and cleaning and stuff
since the day after we watched "2 Fast 2 Furious"... which reminds me that i hafta write about
that.
On monday, what started off as a day of "planning" to skip classes... turned out to
be kinda
cool. i guess it was just the atmosphere of it being the last day and getting out of school. i
was planning to cut 1st period to honda's but miss saw me-- "hi" "hi miss, is it okay if i
come later?" "yeah, sure. where are you going?" "i gon see my counselor." "okay." dammit...
almost got away! hehe. yeah... and honda ended up not being there so i went back earlier
than
expected and ended up that only me, ed, rey, and jane was there... hmm. we had fun going on the
computer i guess... and rey gave me his extra jamba so i was happy! banana berry... not what i
would choose but kinda good. hehe. i was making a farewell
card for mrs.kam but i couldn't print it out so i ended up being late for 2nd period. "hey! i
almost thought you weren't coming. where'd you get that?" haha... it was weird having a
conversation with him about rey.
anywayz, i actually went to 3rd period but i sOo didn't want
to go to 4th... i wanted to skip at least ONE class! haha. so yeah, the bell rang and sean
started
walking with me. "where art thou going?" "honda's" "why?" "cuz i don't wanna go to 4th
period" "can i go with you?" "sure, i guess, if you wanna" but then again... he wasn't there.
i started whining cuz i really didn't want to go to metals and jewelry and then he offered for me
to come to his class! "really? you think i can?" "yeah, i guess" "okay... cool!" so i
went there, waved and hugged miss and asked if i could stay... she said sure so yeah... i was
happy-- because he's in that class too! hehe. him and sean were practicing the
drums on the table and sean started doing something complicated from drumline and he
instantly
looked at me-- making sure i was watching. =D then he said smiling "preview... for next year's
drumline!" hehe... i'm definitely gonna watch next year. lol. so
yeah... 4th period for me turned out to be extremely fun!
so yeah... afterschool was when things really got hectic because we didn't really know our plan
but we knew that we were going to watch movies so yeah... we had to call shauna every couple of
minutes and mariel had to do something but her and angelo ended up walking early to dole so yeah.
we got kicked out from outside the library, then shauna finally came with her friends
to pick us
up. yes... she drove her parents car without her license... SCARY! hehe. so yeah... we go
watch the movie which was okay... the cars are always cool! i just didn't really like the acting
. when it ended, shauna's friend was already late for work so they had to leave so the rest of us
(me, sheila, mari, brandon, gelo) went by costco's to buy food. i had a headache so i couldn't
eat and when we was walking home, i decided to go to my new house. decided to sleep over there
with my brother and my sister came too. it's cool sleeping in an empty place where it's spacious
and airy-- no boxes! haha... it was awesome!
so like i said, twas busy that week moving and we finally finished moving stuff on sunday so
yeah. as for this week, decided to read the 4th harry potter book again because the 5th
one is
coming out this saturday... and YES, we are going to buy it! hehe.
Friday, June 20, 2003
9:46 p.m.
Michael san's Grad party!
today was FUN! all this morning me and my brother kept switching to
news channels waiting for Harry Potter stuff to come on-- haha... i
know... weird!-- and yeah... we found out that somebody dies in
the 5th book! NO! they say it's hagrid but i don't know... hmmm. =)
enthen like 5:00, me and shauna head off to the busstop at kalakaua so
we can go to michael's party. i know shauna doesn't know michael but
still... i invited her anyway... hehe. hey, they did meet so
yeah. when we was walking through kalakaua, we saw Heather! so yeah she
walked with us to the busstop and talked about what she was doing this
summer so far and shauna talking about how kalakaua seemed different.
so anyways, at the busstop, we see gary garo! and we came off the same
place at Lady of the Mount church but he disappeared somewhere
and we arrived at the church EARLY! like super early! in
shauna's words, "filipino time that's why"... haha. hey! it said
it starts at 5:30 okay! we were like the 1st guests there... i
swear... no more even receptionists when we were there!
so lonely over there at our table, waiting.
ruth, cynthia them came and gary came later and stuff... rhemie and her
dancing people came too. they performed and stuff and this dude that
shauna thought was handsome danced hula twice! haha... so smiley
that guy. we were playing with the glitter on our table and stuff...
putting our initials on the table and stuff and putting it on our faces
... ruth them were copying us but i think it's because we have the
"same frame of mind". =) we didn't start eating til 7:00!
so imagine us at our
table, by OURSELVES waiting there since 5:30 to eat! haha... was fun
though! michael was funny when he was giving his "acknowledgements"...
and it was funny hearing all the stories about him... shauna really
took a liking to him... yeah, he's cool. i feel bad that
we had to leave early but we had to take bus ride back so yeah. so when
we did leave (when we finished eating and it was time to dance...
which was around 8:00) we stole the centerpieces (supposed
champagne bottle with ballons) and left... hehe... =D. we said goodbye
to michael, of course, and walked to the busstop and talked about what
we were gonna do for our graduation parties. i'm gonna be a CANDLE!
wow! i feel so honored... haha. whoppee!
"i will always remember shauna as this girl who
started crying in mr.rideout's class...". on the bus, we talked
about harry potter!, of all things... cuz shauna asked me what i was
gonna do tomorrow and i said i'm gonna get the 5th book! hehe. i am!
yay! i can't wait! tonight was fun! i hope it's like this on the 29th
cuz i'm going to sean's (shauna's waipahu friend) grad party... even
though i don't know him... so me and shauna will be even... hehe.
yesterday, mariel called me and we talked about her (imagine me doing
the "quotation" fingers... hehe) "surprise birthday party"...
haha... how can it be a surprise if she's planning it?! haha... i don't
know... weird that girl. but i told her about my dream about her party
and it was that i called him telling him to come because we
invited sean to her party and we didn't want him to feel lonely... haha
... so weird! make like that would ever happen... =P! would be cool if
it did though... hehe.
so yeah, in continuation to that:
saturday, June 21, 2003
left the house at 7:30 in the morning to go to ala's so we can pick up our reserved copy of the new HP book... haha! LAME and weird, yeah? so what? i have my book! i'm happy. so yeah, we wait an hour over there cuz my brother wanted to buy a game but the store wasn't even OPEN! haha... so yeah... go home and i start reading the book Immediately! haha... it's GoOd! someone DOES die... aww... so sad. and i LoVe the romance in there... i was actually rooting for harry... haha... sad, i know. =D anywayz... i finished it in about 2 days... technically it's 3 but i took UnExPecTeD and UnpLannEd naps so that interfered with my reading... hehe.
so yeah, not much happening... just being a lazy bum around the house cuz damn i deserved it... and if i didn't... then well, too bad! haha. it's summer dammit! what do expect me to do? =) i still got get my TB test and talk to the HCC people... *shudders*... it's not to late right?
Sunday, June 8, 2003 [ 12:01 p.m. ]
friday...
just realized i didn't tell what happened on friday. during recess, i went over to ching sensei's to see if she did my eval and if she turned it in... so yeah. going over there... i'm like walking and i see him over there sitting down by the wall. i don't know but it seemed like he was looking somewhere else and he just looked at me like he knew i was coming or something... hmm... =) well, anyway, when i turn and actually see him, and he's like smiling and we wave to each other-- "hi alma!" "hello!" *sigh... talk about being happy! =D too bad he was in the room when we came out... whispers-- "a l m a... alma... come... come here..."... haha...
Saturday, June 7, 2003 [ 09:06 p.m. ]
FHS GRADUATION!!
Congrats to the Seniors! especially to my babe, Cherry!
kay... lemme go in chronological order...
8:30 - I start taking my SAT's at kamehameha... i seriously thought i would be by myself but had tiffy... then we saw mark i. there. when i was done, i saw mark outside and it was like talking to an old friend... i don't know. i don't really know him but that's just the way we acted at that moment... weird! haha... so yeah, i felt i totally bombed that test... i mean, the math sections i was comfortable with... but i skipped so many questions for the verbal part.
12:00 - finished my test... gawd. i so had to piss so badly because i was freezing my butt off in the aircon. i saw a cockroach in the class and was scared out of my mind that it would climb up my leg cuz i was only like right there!
1:00 - left my new house to go to my old house and finish making my lei. it was my first time there and though it's carpeted, i don't really like it. oh well... we're gonna live there forever now cuz my mom bought it for like 15 years. so yeah. i don't have any choice.
5:00 - i leave my house to go to graduation. i totally forgot that it started at 4:00! i'm so bummed out that i didn't get to see the ceremony... man. that's ok. shauna and her friend, michelle, came down today... cool. didn't find out til later that the party they were invited to was at my house! haha... cooliosa!
anywayz, back to graduation. the first person i lei'd was cherry, of course... i was embarrassed holding the sign i made her. one side was one letter from Legolas and the other side said "this sexy b!#@? just got Laid by me..." haha... i know. so bad. but so is she! *tsk, tsk... naughty, naughty* was so funny what her people gave her... especially this one-- it was PaDs and it had like DoDO stains on it... haha... so gross! her man was there... so cute... with his sign... =D. mili was there... after being absent the last week! damn. then i'm there... feeling kinda left out... and gave her my generic, yarn lei... hey! it had jamba juice coupons (kyu-pins... haha... go say that one time gelo) on it okay?! sheez!
okay, so yeah, now i'm running around with shauna, looking for charles, cuz i already lei'd cherry and michael and saw nell and mari. then we saw Thai and his arm around May... hmm. then we found charles and lei'd him and shauna wanted to take pic but he left already. so we look where he stay and there's him coming. i'm like holding onto michelle's camera and he hits me on the head (saying hi) and i touch him back (saying hi)... haha. =D yayness! so cute! i thought he wouldn't notice me cuz he was like so into lei-ing JP... but he did! =) *sigh.
so yeah... we meet up with sheila and janice by the library and when we're passing by the front fence to drop off shauna to meet with michelle, we see him taking pics with his "girl"... haaaahhhh... yeah... still cute though... when we dropped off shauna, we walked back over there and he was like only right there by the fence... so yeah. he's like looking down- he looks up and sees me and smiles- i smile back and we both wave to each other... hehe... =D. i LoVe it! haha... i said hi to clinton too! i thought i should, while i'm at it. haha. so yeah... that's the last we saw of graduating people. =(
then shauna, michelle and her family caught up with us. and we all went 7's. then me, shauna, michelle went towards my house. shauna came in my house to use the comp, of course! haha... and listen to music. michelle came in for a brief period to use bathroom and talk story with shauna for a while. they invited me to sleep over and i really did want to go cuz it sounded super fun with just us girls but no... mommy that's why. *haw... man... "we click that's why... and you'll click too!" "yeah... see?"... i know... thanks for the invite but sorry. anywayz... hows me and shauna... shame for get food. even my mom never like get food! haha... we ended up getting for her cuz shauna wanted me to "pretend" to cuz she wanted PoKe. haha. so shame going more than once! haha. pretty good food. fun!
8:00 - somewhere around this time shauna goes home with michelle and yeah... i'm here typing away.
hmm... i'll continue later if i do wanna add something to this... if not... good night!
Thursday, June 5, 2003 [ 11:41 p.m. ]
even if it was only for a moment...
no more seniors today! haha... 1st period... only 7 people! good thing i brought my harry potter! yup... we just watched that for the whole period. it was so cool cuz we sat wherever we wanted and we each had our own fan! haha... it's hella hot now days!
2nd period, we watched the seniors practice their songs and walking... they seriously sounded sucky and dead today but i'm sure they'll come alive on saturday. also watched "spirited away"... that movie is seriously disturbing but cool at the same time. i got lost along the way. watched this irking movie for 3rd period... wanted to sleep but miss was behind me... i think.
ohmygosh... i seriously wanted to talk to him today. i had to go to sensei's to make her sign my evaluation and i was like walking towards there... i never even see him cuz i was trying to avoid getting hit by guys. then i look up and see him looking AND smiling at me. =) can you say "heart poundage?" gawd. i love it. then i was passing towards him and he was trying to talk to me and stuff... stalker! hehe. =D But i had to go... gosh... i so wanted to stay and talk... "long time you never come here... finally..." looking and smiling at me? i feel so special... =D!
Wednesday, June 4, 2003 [ 09:48 p.m. ]
goodbye SeNiORs!
today was the seniors' last day... video taping, parties, ScReaMiNg... going crazy... but so da kine cuz they only gon come tomorrow for song practice... haha. i hate it when they video tape you passing by and stuff-- that's the kine you gotta make nice,nice everytime... you cannot look hash. =P. tomorrow in physics will be seriously empty cuz there's only like 7 of us juniors left! haha... i hope we just cruise. i'll bring "harry potter 2" just in case... hehe.
hmm... what else? oh yeah! finally talked to chrisfel online last night... wow... it's been a long time. seriously, we had one good convo... love and all that shhtuff. =) Actually talked to mili and cherry too! long time i never go online just for chat... usually it's just for emergency on homework... haha. i promise to go on more often during the summer... hehe.
Tuesday, June 3, 2003 [ 07:25 p.m. ]
hmm... =)
"Do you wanna come to my party?" "What party?" "My graduation party..." "haha... sure!" "nah... I would invite you though..." *sigh. Way to go Tersy! Go ahead and tell him off! haha...
I feel really -yeah- cuz i can't remember what happened yesterday... aagh.
today... he moved from across the room, removed my friend's bag from the desk next to mine and sat next to me. hmm... it's nothing new... =D. had fun in 3rd period bothering people, talking to sheila about "things" and stuff... 1st period was like that too. school is starting to calm down... whew... i'm glad. it's the seniors' last day tomorrow... aww... gon miss them. =(. now i really gotta make leis.
oh yeah... he called me late sunday night... =D twas a nice surprise to see his name on my cell...
Saturday, May 31, 2003 [ 04:29 p.m. ]
a great day 2
yesterday was another great day! i did pretty good on my phys test and for homeroom, we played a blind-fold puzzle game. was so funny cuz heather was the one blind-folded and me, gelo, and brandon had to tell her where to put the pieces. we was just screaming and stuff... much fun. then Miss gave us food, as always... i like homeroom! 2nd period, we watched "drumline"... the end was supercool... makes me want to join band again. 3rd period was a cruise class, just reminiscing in our old english classes cuz we got to see our folder and stuff... so funny and corny the things i used to write about. gawd.
okay, here's the dealios...
we was walking to manago's. we was like by the bathroom corner downstairs already and mari went ask me a question. so i went turn around to answer her enthen i see him over there and i have this look on my face. then mari's like "why you looking at me like that for?" enthen i'm like "i'm not looking at you... i'm looking at him!" then he walks next to me and is like "i'm in alma's group now... yeah alma?" and all that stuff... i ask him hacome he here cuz he never told me he was gonna come and he's all like "oh, i need help with just one problem." yeah. so he's there... and we go to buy lunch. when we was walking, sheila's all telling me how cute that was and stuff and how it was just super cute cuz he went catch up and walk with me and stuff... =) yeah. we come back and he's still there. but when he leaves, he's like "bye everyone... bye a l m a..." and i'm like "bye _ _ _ _ _ _ _" and he leaves. then janice and gelo bust out laughing! i don't think he even left yet and they were laughing already... gawd! and they were teasing me about how i said bye. and brandon even said it was "the moan-y bye"... NOT! at least... i don't think so... i hope NOT! gawd. i don't even remember... but they just kept teasing me dammit... they were even re-enacting it for everyone else too see! then amber's like "do you just like his name?" i'm like "no".. and she's like "oh so you do like him?" "no!"... gawd. man... so scary that kine. he just come out of nowhere... i'm happy yes but what if i was talking about him that time, ya know? he would've heard! goodness gracious... it wasn't like that, was it? *sigh
then afterschool, he calls my cell saying how he can't make it tonight... yup. =) nah... there's this awards thingy at 6:00 and Miss asked if he could come... but i guess he couldn't... =( "Hi Alma. this is _______, do you know who i am?" "you just said..." "haha..." So Weird that guy... lol. =D So anyway, i go and help sandy out backstage and pass out awards and stuff... so fun. i want the newswriting trophies cuz it's stars... cool. was so fun trying to take angelo's one... you have to let it go sooner or later... i got an award... actually my group (which includes him) got a certificate. if he only he came. i did text him though... =D... Long night... the awards ended at 9:00... gawd. and so funny mary jane cuz she was trying to kill the lady and everyone saw... lol... jj.
and yes, gelo... i was contemplating =)
b y e!
Thursday, May 29, 2003 [ 03:59 p.m. ]
what a great day!
2nd per started off sucky at first cuz the irking guy kept bugging us about the brochure and kept saying how he'd make one for us for $5 and i kept thinking "yeah whatever... shut up already!" but of course, i can't keep sad with him around. =) got to talking and stuff. then had that stupid fire drill. it rang the first time but it was short so nobody went outside. then it rings again and they're like "this is a Real drill"... gawd. so we're out there under the tree... the bell rings for 3rd period but we still out there cuz the fire drill still ringing and we hafta stay. he's cute. tersy's funny. right when the bell ring for go, she's on the stage "posing." haha. met up with him during lunch to go to where we hang cuz he wanted to ask gelo for help for trig. yes... he asked me if he could come and i said yes. =) And could mari be anymore ObViOus?! cuz we're walking to manago's, he's there already walking with me and she's in the back and she pulls mili back to walk with her so it can just be the two of us... gawd. and when we was there... she wouldn't stop laughing and smiling and stuff... geezez... why won't you just yell it out if you're gonna be like that already. Gawd i hope he doesn't know. imagine the damage if he did... but i hafta admit... i did feel good/happy. i brushed up on him when we was walking... *sigh =D
Wednesday, May 28, 2003 [ 03:41 p.m. ]
Happy Birthday to me
as lame as that sounds... happy b-day to me... haha. today was okay. 1st period, we just had an easy worksheet enthen it was just book signing from there. 2nd period was good cuz he gave me a cute mm pen. he didn't know it was my birthday though... it was just a gift for me and terse... haha... i like to think i had something to do with it cuz i texted him. =) we watched the ending to "greek wedding" and listened to ellison play guitar very quietly... lol. 3rd period, everyone was saying happy birthday and we watched movie again. i was so uncomfortable cuz it was boring and i wanted to move cuz my butt was getting sore but i was scared that i might block sheila or sandy's way so yeah... i was stuck in that sore position. lunch, people was still signing my balloon... nice one. lol. in 4th period, miss told the students to repeat after her and she said "happy birthday alma!" so yeah, the whole class said happy birthday. so irritating though some of the boys cuz they just irking. haha.
interesting stuff today:
- i got a quarter as a present
- he wore a mickey 28 shirt today... 28... my b-day? haha
- shiraki and bear balls?
- me and janice talked about boobs again... she soo huge!
- gelo made a "happy birthday" sign... haha... so cute
- signed his yearbook... =D
- anela signed my balloon... wow... the memories...
- mili and her boyfriend
- i "tried" kissing cherry... nah j/j... i jus made like... hehe
scared her like hell though... twas fun!
that's pretty much it. as you can see, new layout... Orlando of course! from his upcoming movie, Pirates of the Carribean and my new favorite song... so turn your speakers up. there's a hidden image, see if you can find it! =P
Tuesday, May 27, 2003 [ 05:49 p.m. ]
he's back!
i didn't turn in my lab for phys today... i know it's bad but i don't know what in the hell i'm doing... especially for that lab. gawd. so i guess i'll turn it in tomorrow and get 10 points taken off... who cares.
he said his trip was super fun cuz all of the rides were "mean"... haha. watched "my big fat greek wedding" again today and after they got married... you know when the parents give them the papers for the house... it's like a sad moment with hugging and stuff. then he touched me and asked "are you crying?"aww he kinda looked like he was crying too but he was just a little sick. =) oh and he signed my yearbook... only a small message though. =( that's okay though... as long he signed it.
took a little nap during 3rd period today... haha. we were watching a video that's why. i don't get it with me and videos... video time is officially called Nap Time for me. =D
Cherry took home my yearbook on friday and filled it up with booty-ful pics of Legolas and Josh Hartnett and made it all pretty for me... right on the front too! OoHhHh! oh and luv the pic of the hubbies she gave me... sOo CuTe!! Oh Cherry, seksay! seksay!
Monday, May 26, 2003 [ 08:05 p.m. ]
Happy Birthday Sheila! it was so funny cuz shauna called me and said happy birthday cuz she got me and sheila's birthday mixed up. haha. she was like, "i was gonna call both of you guys and just say happy birthday..." haha... funny. everybody get's our birthday's mixed up for some weird reason. call me on wednesday shauna... remember now. =)
Monday, May 26, 2003 [ 07:55 p.m. ]
i really LOVE this song
you know those songs where it's not only about the words. but it's not only about the music either. it's about the combination that makes it so moving that it makes you cry sometimes. this is one of those songs. seriously, i can do everything to this song-- i can sing, sleep, cry, think... a lot of stuff... it's just one of those songs that seriously make you think about stuff... i guess cuz it's kinda what i'm feeling, ya know... like this song was made for me. i LOVE this song.
Duncan Sheik - "Half Life"
I'm awake in the afternoon
I fell asleep in the living room
and it's one of those moments
when everything is so clear
before the truth goes back into hiding
I want to decide 'cause it's worth deciding
to work on finding something more than this fear
It takes so much out of me to pretend
tell me now, tell me how to make amends
maybe, I need to see the daylight
to leave behind this half-life
don't you see I'm breaking down
lately, something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life
is there really no escape?
no escape from time
of any kind
I keep trying to understand
this thing and that thing, my fellow man
I guess I'll let you know
when i figure it out
but I don't mind a few mysteries
they can stay that way it's fine by me
and you are another mystery i am missing
It takes so much out of me to pretend
maybe, I need to see the daylight
to leave behind this half-life
don't you see I'm breaking down
Lately, something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life
is there really no escape?
no escape from time
of any kind
come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
again
'cause lately something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life,
without you I am breaking down
wake me, let me see the daylight
save me from this half-life
let's you and I escape
escape from time
come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
again
version 1 - April 16, 2002
version 2 - June 15, 2002
version 3 - July 21, 2002
version 4 - ??
version 5 - December 18, 2002
version 6 - January 13, 2003
version 7 - March 26, 2003
version 8 - April 13, 2003
version 9 - May 28, 2003
version 10 - July 9, 2003
